How do you cope with a stillbirth?

Hi Mommy of two flying angels. I lost my child to stillbirth in 2005 and he was my first born. I felt like my world was falling apart. I blamed god and even myself. I was even treated like I was going crazy by my child's father who I'm no longer with. I got pregnant 1 month after my loss thinking that it would somehow make me feel better. Maybe it would fill that void. It didn't. I still to this very day think of my boy. I still love him and there is nothing wrong with that. I think what helped me get past the grief was time and acceptance. I had to go back to my faith and I believe that he is in a better place now. The world is full so much hurt and despair. What could be bad about believing that my child is happy and in the arms of my father and other loved ones who have past on. I wrote some poetry and that helped me say things to my son that I felt he understood and heard from heaven somehow. I'm not the greatest poet lol. It just felt good to me. I would also recommend seeking counseling through the church or maybe a local grief group. Your hospital should have given you a list of resources. Just remember that your grief is normal and everyone grieves in their own way and in their own time. You will get past this and you will know happiness again. I promise.